I sat lightly on my bed and browse the channels on the T.V. I said, this is a fine weekend. Everything that has happened was now an experience or a brand new learning. It’s all about how you put your mind to it. It never came easy. I jumped at the thought that I could do things I never knew I could repeat doing. But that’s the beauty of moving on. That moment I realized, I forgot questioning why things did or did not happen. I realized, I lost that overwhelming desire to know the reason either. I realized, the wound was still there., It still hurt but I am healed.
I honestly felt relaxed, and thoughts came effortlessly. I found new treasures along the way. Met new faces, Confronted twisted minds and conflict. I made mistakes, ate too much, I argued, And no longer did I take guilt on laughing so hard when I am really happy. It did not made my heart flinch one bit. It is a clear indication that I am going through the the right direction. All elements are present, and my courage should be on full blow. It was a blissful feeling of wanting to do everything at once. The moment you knew you were out from suffering, you can’t wait but to start anew. To get up fresh and to build everything. From emotions, to faith, to relationships, back together. Once again, my quest for happiness emerged. I have to constantly remind myself that this is a process, this is a choice. Currently ignited by the vision and concept of moving slow, moving fast, and moving on ward s. I found out that things will be a lot lighter if I try taking life momentarily, not being tied down from the past nor discouraged by the future. Trials come in many forms even so, that goes the same thing with blessings. I know that even though it get’s dark every now and then, better days are also coming. All because the things that makes life hard are also, to our great disbelief, the ones that makes everything worthwhile.
Now my favorite show was back on screen. It got my attention. All of it. I was thinking, should I stop writing and watch? Thoughts will be pouring down, they can’t be blocked. Should I focus on what I am doing now or to face that urge I can’t stand a chance of watching twice. Moment by moment. Little by little. The least I could do is try. It will get better I said. Everything will be fine. And today, they already are.